Do I Need A Savior?

My son and I were talking about religion and he brought up that although other religions have truth in them, as a Christian it is important to believe in Jesus and that He died on the cross to save us. I think I can officially say I’m no longer a Christian, but rather a follower of Christ and a student of universal truth. Last night I was laying in bed thinking about what I think about Jesus as my savior. The odd thought, that has never popped into my mind before, was that I don’t need a savior.

The church for the last 2,000 years has drilled into people’s heads that they are dirty, rotten, evil sinners and that they have to say the magic words that Jesus is their savior and they can secure their ticket into heaven. That is their foundation and basis, even now. They have to believe in their “heart” that Jesus died on the cross to save them from their sins when the reality is saying the words is not what saves them, but the change in their mindset to having hope rather than being in despair that they are alone and unloved.

It is interesting to me that Jesus while on earth that doing rote practices was not the way to please God. He spent a lot of time trying to get his followers to look into their actual hearts (a.k.a. motivations/conscience) and work to get the weeds out there instead of going through motions that were completely irrelevant to how they showed up as people. Do you love your neighbor as yourself? Are you willing to sacrifice your comfort to help others? Are you completely accepting of people not like you? Jesus’ message was that we are to love others, fight for what is right, and keep our thoughts and our actions pure, but from a place of kindness, not judgment or superiority.

Why do I think Jesus died on the cross if it wasn’t to save me from my sins? Historically, the Jews required a sacrifice to atone for the sins of the Jewish person who committed a transgression. They could slaughter a bird or something small for small transgressions and a cow or something more valuable to them if they did something more egregious. The symbolism of Jesus’ death was to be the ultimate and final sacrifice. He, who was without blame, gave his life to end the need for sacrifices because his death symbolized our oneness with God on a heart level rather than a “works” level. He ended the need for separation between the Holy and the Common. He ended the need for rituals that made us acceptable in the eyes of God because who we are in our minds is what determines if we are acceptable to God.

What Jesus did was profound and extremely beautiful in that he opened the door between God and Man and showed us that we are all able and invited to commune with the Most High on an individual basis rather than through priests or needing something else to bridge the gap. So, what do early church members do? They create priests and redefine Jesus’ act as a bridge between God and Man so that we look to something other than ourselves to save us rather than our own hearts and minds connecting us to God directly. Do Christians who believe Jesus is their savior still have access to God? Absolutely! But I no longer believe I need to see myself as needing a savior because what Jesus did eliminated that requirement. It is done.

As people, we are always looking for things to imbue with the power that God gave us. Instead of the traditional idols, we use crosses, crystals, or mantras to protect ourselves instead of realizing we have the power within ourselves to be our own saviors. We are the ones deciding to believe the object has power, so why do we need the object? It is scary to imagine we have the power without the object and feels like we are being arrogant. We have the ability to connect with the divine, heal, manifest, prophesize, and all that weird stuff without a middleman. However, the power ultimately comes from God. We ultimately have to accept that power whether through ourselves or through an object of our choosing.

I know, growing up in the Christian church, that my words would be rejected and shamed as being heretical. However, I truly feel that in going back through the words of Jesus his indication that the way to the Father was through him can be looked at as the way to God is to be like Jesus. As in duplicating not just admiring him. He told his followers that they would do even greater things than he did and empowered them to teach others to do all those things. If we can do greater things than Jesus, we are also “sons of God”. Why not believe we can do what Jesus’ followers were able to do? It is our choice to separate ourselves or not. Jesus is our example, our leader, our guru. His death eliminated my need for a savior because I have the power within myself to reach God. I have nothing I need to be saved from except myself, my own negative thoughts, and my own limitations. Once I accept that I’m not limited by anything other than my own mind is when I am saved.

July 20, 2022


As I have been wrestling over the direction my life should take, I have been juggling the various areas of interest in my mind like flaming bowling ball pins. I have spent my career life in business, helping businesses and counseling people on tracking their finances for their business. However, it is not my passion or my gift. My gift is in merging all that exists up in the world of thought into the reality of what that means on a day to day basis. Whether it be how to track inventory or how to understand the wonders of the Universe, it doesn’t matter if you can’t actually do something with it in the here and now.

I am not an optimist or a pessimist. Both have their innate issues. An optimist tends to ignore the possibility for failure in the effort to make their dreams come true. A pessimist tends to refuse to look for possibilities because of all the reasons things can go wrong. Truth lies in the middle. We must look at all the possibilities and then forecast where things can go wrong so we can actually make things happen working towards our goals. That is the sweet spot of the realist. That is where I want to live and breathe and help others in their journey.

In my meditations I have been asking Spirit to guide me toward something to focus on. After some reflection, it hit me that I have this website and a ton of information that I can post to help people with content they are interested in. Whether it be spiritual reflections, astrology, Human Design, or general mysticism I have a lot of resources that I can provide people. I have everything I need to reach out into the world and help people pull down their lofty general notions and figure out how to make it real in their life. Being that I am who I am, I cannot promise daily content or even consistent areas of focus but I can use this platform to document what I have learned/am learning.

I have spent the last year + learning astrology. I have gone through more than one course to learn how to read charts and have a lot of books to assist me, but I have not wanted to offer myself for readings because I don’t feel I am an expert yet. It occurred to me that only in actually doing readings will I become an expert. I have been on FB in some astrology groups where I have contributed some useful insight into people’s charts to offer my guidance and it has been very encouraging that although I may miss some things I do know enough to be helpful. It is my intention to use my astrology knowledge as a springboard to helping people in their spiritual lives. People come to astrology and other tools to understand themselves and their purpose. It ends up being a very deep and personal journey that is ultimately spiritual in nature. When we learn how to understand ourselves we also learn how to understand others and everyone’s place in the world. When we learn to understand others we see that we are all connected. When we see we are all connected we see that their is something connecting us all – a higher power. Spirit. Once we see that there is a bigger picture it opens so many doors to discovery. I hope to be a guide to opening doors.

I have everything I need. I am everything I need. However, life is about inclusion. I cannot exist on my own and sustain myself. We were created to connect, to nourish others, to live in community. Being part of the whole means getting involved in the whole. I am ready to connect.

April 12, 2020

Happy Easter!

I miss looking at things from a big picture. I majored in Finance rather than Accounting because I love concepts and finding meaning in big things. As it turns out I also am really good with the details and being in the weeds. I find comfort in the nitty-gritty because there are results and it is more apparent when you actually finish something. As it turns out there is so much frustration with the big picture because there are so many ways to look at things. Because our view may be limited to one side, we come to believe our side is the “right” side, the only side, the most important side. We even believe that there are no other sides, because we don’t have access to the big picture. When we realize that there is so much more to see, we can either reject that and keep our old views or we can humble ourselves to start changing the way we are thinking to understand the whole view.

It is like the story of the three blind men that come up to the elephant and are asked to describe what they find. One, who has the elephants trunk, describes it like a snake. Another, who has the elephants leg, describes it like a tree trunk. The last one is at the elephants belly and describes it like a big leathery wall. None of them are wrong, but none of them are right either. They do not understand, and therefore what they think is right is only partially right.

That, to me, is like our view of God. We all have developed our own view based on what we have had access to through family, church etc. There is so much more. We may have words for it, so when we discover more it gives meaning to those words, but inside our hearts and minds the view has expanded to include more depth and understanding.

As I sit and ponder Easter on my couch at home because stay-at-home orders forbid me to attend services in person, I wonder how much of my view of God is still not open to me. I have gone from having very firm views of the side of God that I held as being the “only truth” to intentionally challenging myself to see God from the other views to understand why people hold them. I have gone from being certain of what I know to being very uncertain that I know anything at all.

I don’t believe that we should all just find our own truth. I do believe that there are things more true than others. Children can believe they can fly, but as parents we don’ t let them jump out their window. There are laws that govern all of life, whether we believe or know about them are not. We should seek to understand those laws about God and the Universe so that we can find firm foundation in our lives; then seek inside and out to formulate our beliefs of however much of the big picture we’ve been given. Finally, we should be open to the idea that there is more yet to be revealed. None of the blind men explored the ears or head of the elephant. What have we yet to even discover about God?