July 20, 2022

I HAVE EVERYTHING I NEED

As I have been wrestling over the direction my life should take, I have been juggling the various areas of interest in my mind like flaming bowling ball pins. I have spent my career life in business, helping businesses and counseling people on tracking their finances for their business. However, it is not my passion or my gift. My gift is in merging all that exists up in the world of thought into the reality of what that means on a day to day basis. Whether it be how to track inventory or how to understand the wonders of the Universe, it doesn’t matter if you can’t actually do something with it in the here and now.

I am not an optimist or a pessimist. Both have their innate issues. An optimist tends to ignore the possibility for failure in the effort to make their dreams come true. A pessimist tends to refuse to look for possibilities because of all the reasons things can go wrong. Truth lies in the middle. We must look at all the possibilities and then forecast where things can go wrong so we can actually make things happen working towards our goals. That is the sweet spot of the realist. That is where I want to live and breathe and help others in their journey.

In my meditations I have been asking Spirit to guide me toward something to focus on. After some reflection, it hit me that I have this website and a ton of information that I can post to help people with content they are interested in. Whether it be spiritual reflections, astrology, Human Design, or general mysticism I have a lot of resources that I can provide people. I have everything I need to reach out into the world and help people pull down their lofty general notions and figure out how to make it real in their life. Being that I am who I am, I cannot promise daily content or even consistent areas of focus but I can use this platform to document what I have learned/am learning.

I have spent the last year + learning astrology. I have gone through more than one course to learn how to read charts and have a lot of books to assist me, but I have not wanted to offer myself for readings because I don’t feel I am an expert yet. It occurred to me that only in actually doing readings will I become an expert. I have been on FB in some astrology groups where I have contributed some useful insight into people’s charts to offer my guidance and it has been very encouraging that although I may miss some things I do know enough to be helpful. It is my intention to use my astrology knowledge as a springboard to helping people in their spiritual lives. People come to astrology and other tools to understand themselves and their purpose. It ends up being a very deep and personal journey that is ultimately spiritual in nature. When we learn how to understand ourselves we also learn how to understand others and everyone’s place in the world. When we learn to understand others we see that we are all connected. When we see we are all connected we see that their is something connecting us all – a higher power. Spirit. Once we see that there is a bigger picture it opens so many doors to discovery. I hope to be a guide to opening doors.

I have everything I need. I am everything I need. However, life is about inclusion. I cannot exist on my own and sustain myself. We were created to connect, to nourish others, to live in community. Being part of the whole means getting involved in the whole. I am ready to connect.

April 12, 2020

Happy Easter!

I miss looking at things from a big picture. I majored in Finance rather than Accounting because I love concepts and finding meaning in big things. As it turns out I also am really good with the details and being in the weeds. I find comfort in the nitty-gritty because there are results and it is more apparent when you actually finish something. As it turns out there is so much frustration with the big picture because there are so many ways to look at things. Because our view may be limited to one side, we come to believe our side is the “right” side, the only side, the most important side. We even believe that there are no other sides, because we don’t have access to the big picture. When we realize that there is so much more to see, we can either reject that and keep our old views or we can humble ourselves to start changing the way we are thinking to understand the whole view.

It is like the story of the three blind men that come up to the elephant and are asked to describe what they find. One, who has the elephants trunk, describes it like a snake. Another, who has the elephants leg, describes it like a tree trunk. The last one is at the elephants belly and describes it like a big leathery wall. None of them are wrong, but none of them are right either. They do not understand, and therefore what they think is right is only partially right.

That, to me, is like our view of God. We all have developed our own view based on what we have had access to through family, church etc. There is so much more. We may have words for it, so when we discover more it gives meaning to those words, but inside our hearts and minds the view has expanded to include more depth and understanding.

As I sit and ponder Easter on my couch at home because stay-at-home orders forbid me to attend services in person, I wonder how much of my view of God is still not open to me. I have gone from having very firm views of the side of God that I held as being the “only truth” to intentionally challenging myself to see God from the other views to understand why people hold them. I have gone from being certain of what I know to being very uncertain that I know anything at all.

I don’t believe that we should all just find our own truth. I do believe that there are things more true than others. Children can believe they can fly, but as parents we don’ t let them jump out their window. There are laws that govern all of life, whether we believe or know about them are not. We should seek to understand those laws about God and the Universe so that we can find firm foundation in our lives; then seek inside and out to formulate our beliefs of however much of the big picture we’ve been given. Finally, we should be open to the idea that there is more yet to be revealed. None of the blind men explored the ears or head of the elephant. What have we yet to even discover about God?